Reviews, critiques and moving forward

The skin continues to thicken, a little at a time. I hear almost weekly that as a songwriter, you need to grow a thick skin, which is not an easy task as you bare your soul trying to find honesty in the depths of your psyche. Oh, well, get over it. I had a number of critiques on a song that is now named "Play it Over" with 180 degree response on some things from seasoned professionals. Now comes the learning when to turn which direction or be better able to hear and trust that inner voice screaming at me. What a bazar thing it all is.

I've set up a review with another songwriter; Craig Bickhardt. Craig has a long list of accalades and I've listened to him critique others - I'm very impressed. He is active currently writing and recording new material as well as a long history of top songs recorded by various artists. I've got to trust his input, so my plan is to take a newly penned tune and see what the word is. Again, I think its good stuff or I wouldn't throw it to the wolves - I've thought that in the past too. But, I know I'm learning and putting more craft behind what I do now than I did 6 months or even 1 month ago. The process continues.

I thought I'd throw in a Gary's home studio shot here as an aside. I found some wall mounts for my stringed instruments and it really clears out the floor space. Check out guitar wall mounts on ebay if you're interested. Great price and they sure work great whether its for the acoustic or even down to the neck size of the ukelele - adjustable.

And Rewrite and Rewrite

You know, this is a lot of work. But, I gotta say, I do love it. I've been getting some mentoring from Alan Roy Scott this past couple weeks and it has been invaluable. Alan has written for so many people - like Celine Dion, Luther Vandross, Notorious B.I.G., Gloria Estefan, Cyndi Lauper, Patti LaBelle, Neville Bros. Roberta Flack, Cher - just to name a few. What a wide range.

Anyway, he's a great coach and I feel privileged to be able to tap into his 25 or so years as a successful songwriter. I've taken a recent song back down to the bones and even replaced some of the bones in an effort to make it a more viable commercial entity (and yes, that is my target right now). I'm currently on about the 5th rewrite and the 3rd title based on the extensiveness of the rewrites.

I felt like I was taking some lumps early on in this process, but I really wanted to fast-track my journey as long as I could keep enjoying it. With a few little bumps in the "fun" part of it, I find the challenges incredible and the personal rewards pretty intense. I also find it amazing that if I were to look back 10 years or even less, I would not have been able to find the people that I'm finding to help. Some aspects of technology are an incredible asset.

All that being said, I've decided to take a couple songs and let them go on the rewrite ride with me. I will forgo recording much at all until I increase some of my songwriter skill sets and get some good solid, "Hey maybe its time to pitch these songs" kind of feedback. The needed changes can tend to take one back to square one anyway, so . . . I'll keep increasing my ukulele "skills" and my fingers tough on the acoustic - not to mention my psyche. I think as long as you can continue to laugh at yourself when needed, you can make it through.

Here's a short "laugh at yourself" thing from last week for me. I found myself using metaphoric type lyrics to the point that people didn't know what the heck I was talking about, they didn't understand the song without my interpretation. Now, I suppose that's OK if you know your doing it, but I really thought I was being clear - apparently not. I took a mortar to the gut and survived. Now, part two of the story. My wife's work is moving and she is tasked with letting all of their clients, etc. know of the impending change. She always comes to me to wordsmith and this time was no different. However, I told her that by the time I was done with the announcement, nobody would have a clue as to if, where or why they were moving, but it would be done so poetically that it wouldn't matter and I was up to the task.

I take a breath and move on.

More Industry Feedback

This is tough stuff. I feel like I'm at some sort of crossroads with my writing. I find it so hard to be objective, but I also find that I'm taking constructive criticism pretty well - maybe my skin's getting a little thicker. That being said, I'm finding it challenging to connect the dots with what makes sense intellectually and absorbing things into my DNA.

Each time I apply changes or new guidelines, I feel progress, but never as fast as I'd like it to be. The crossroads really is just this: Do I have what it takes to write professionally and play with the big boys and girls? Tuesday I thought I did and Wednesday I wasn't sure. But, after I take a few deep breaths I think it is really not just a talent thing. It is a tenacity + talent + inquisitiveness + creativity + (add in whatever you think here)-thing.

Today I have my first mentoring review in a SongU class. I've decided to review my newest write in which I applied some different techniques and I'm reluctantly excited about getting feedback. I think its a good write, but that's just me - so we'll see how some other, more seasoned ears feel about it.

Although I love taking the time to record, I have discovered that once I take the time to put something down in 1's and 0's form, it feels like I should be done. So, I'm going to only record for the fun of it or to do more live-type recording until I can get up to par on the writing.

Oh, and here's a quote that is my new mantra for writing songs: "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." from Maya Angelou, Professor of English Literature Wake Forest University, Winston-Salem, NC.

You know, if it was easy, everyone would do it. Take a deep breath and continue. Hey I still enjoy it, so onward and upward and downward and back upward.

Songwriter Chops

I find it very interesting that when I attend, either in person or online, various discussion groups that are touted as songwriter oriented, the conversation always ends up around recording or playing. I have done and do the same thing, but I'm trying to change. Not that these things aren't important in the process if one is attempting to move their material to an artists, but it all starts with the song. It is so easy to put that in the background and concentrate on the other things. Hell, I've done it here on this site, for sure.

I have spent some time over the past few weeks searching online and trying some different avenues in an attempt to find a good and comfortable path for myself with the end product being improving my writing skills. I always find the paths interesting to look back at and note the weaving of the fabric that gets you from A to B - and it never seems like a straight line to me, but I'm sure I'm not seeing the whole picture. At any rate, contacts that I've made, instruction and searching on the web have now lead me to SongU. See how much fun their having in this picture? That could be you, my friend. With only 3 easy flex payments . . . (sorry, couldn't resist).

I'm still in my 10 day free trial period, but have finished a few courses and been online for a workshop and I'm very impressed. I've taken time to apply some new ideas and I'm simply blown away with not just the change, but the creativity channel that going through a new application process in writing is having. I realize that I'm still in the baby stages of this new avenue, but I strongly recommend a look at this site for anyone interested in improving their craft.

I decided to write my next song partly by choosing two or three "new" writing techniques that I just studied and see what happens. Don't know yet what anyone else will think, but I'm excited. When I get it recorded, I'll add it to the play list at the top of the blog. Assuming I don't change the name for some reason, it will be "No Guarantee".

Now, if I could only find a site to make my hair grow back on its own, my life would be complete.

A "New" Instrument

I just returned from a week plus in Maui. Hey, ya do what ya gotta do. Anyway, since you were wondering, my wife and I had a great time celebrating our 20th (anniversary not birthdays). I had planned to check out ukuleles somewhere during our visit as I had a song that I felt that sound would be great on, but I knew nothing about the instrument.

Well, now I know just a little more. I visited Mele Ukulele and spent a bit of time listening, talking and "playing" in an effort to get some understanding. I knew I'd be shocked as to the variety of woods, sizes, string configurations and I was not left wanting on choices. After careful consideration, I ended up buying a 6-string tenor that you can see here.

I recorded just a taste once I got home and its going to sound great - but I need to spend some more time getting my fat fingers positioned on the midget-size fretboard and my brain wrapped around the differences between guitar and ukulele. Its fun. I haven't picked up a new instrument in forever, so the challenge is great.

I also started a music twitter just for the heck of it and will tie all the music bit machines together soon. All strange and fun. I may have to go back to the islands for lessons - like I said, ya do what ya gotta do.

Songwriter Workshop

I attended a Eugene based songwriters' workshop for the first time a couple weeks ago. It ended up being a group of about 15 this time, which meets in a local bookstore once a month. The intent is to critique songs for form, content, everything except performance. Some bring in recordings and some play their guitars. I had no idea what to expect and as fate would have it, I was asked to present first. I'm glad I had a CD instead of playing this first time. Too much pressure for this old guy.

I was extremely impressed with the way the people in the group sized up the presenter and gave great feedback in the form of suggestions as well as positive responses. I have written before about belonging to an online forum community called SongRamp. My take on it so far is that people tend to give only positive reviews which is great for the ego, but does little for the process of improvement. While sitting face to face in Eugene, I found it to be a very effective approach. I know I took with me some great suggestions with the song I presented as well as some good ego boosting comments, but its the suggestions for improvement or at least ideas to think about that I appreciate the most. I found myself a little slow to the critique process of other peoples' material, but I got into the swing after a couple of them. I really loved it and will continue to go as much as I can in the future.

As a follow-up to the workshop, I logged onto the website that is maintained for it and discovered that I could set up a free website of my own for my music. Its free, until I want to have more than around 10 songs, so I'm sure I'll either find another avenue or upgrade for a small monthly fee. Pretty cool and simple for someone who isn't overqualified in website management. My site is garytodd.webs.com if you're interested.

Happy writing to all. Soon.

Don't Blame the Tools

Well, I can no longer blame the tools. I think I've got all I really need to get some good tracks down. I am still on a steep learning curve though. The last major piece to the puzzle for me was a studio channel tube preamp with compression, parametric EQ and phantom power for my condenser mic. Hell, I never new I needed most of this stuff and am now slowly learning how to use it along with the new software, etc.

My "work" day basically consist of reading/learning, trying some hands on, playing with some new tracks, rerecording and sometimes I forget to get in there and write some too. I'm trying to keep all the balls in the air and not lose any one leg of the songwriter table. Did I mix my metaphors? Gotta work on that too I guess.

I've gotten pretty good at remembering to write down things that come to mind and at least throw them on the idea pile for later, if not right away. For the first time in my writing career, I feel like I have a ton of ideas, so that shouldn't slow me down - I'll have to find another excuse. No, I love that part of it. I remember years ago thinking that I had no idea how to keep coming up with more song thoughts, but as it turns out, that couldn't be further from the truth. I've got a thick file that appears to be like the energizer bunny of directions.

Today I worked through a number of ideas for a song I'm working on. Trashed a bunch of takes, went back to the drawing board, did some more, undid some and on and on. I find that after a few hours I've got to remember to escape and do something else for a while and come back again with some fresh ears. I've heard and read more than one place that your ears really do hit the ceiling - and already knew that happened mentally, but I didn't realize there was a physical thing going on with the ears also. Makes sense - like in anything else fatigue sets in, even if you love what your doing.

More to come.